WHO WAS I BEFORE I SURRENDERED, AND WHO AM I NOW?

i was lost.

i didn't have an anchor.

i was ploughing ahead, no hope in my heart.

this was me before i surrendered to god.

and when i did,

a weight got lifted from my shoulder.

i had a guide,

an anchor,

a lifeline.

i believed in something far greater than myself

and realizing the insignificance of my life,

i exhaled.

life is beautiful,

living is beautiful,

but do it with grace,

i learned.

we're all just guests in this world,

and god's leela needs to be embraced, not shunned.

i am not perfect.

there are days when i am not my best self,

but isn't that the beauty of being human?-- the imperfection?

and god is my guiding light

my compass

and here i am

living

breathing

halting

questioning

and answering

but i never stop believing

just like that Journey song.