not okay

 you know what?

no i am not okay.

i am lonely.

i am sad.

i am broke.

i feel pathetic.

my brain doesn't cooperate sometimes.

i feel used.

but i also

feel grateful

to have this life.

my life choices have brought me to this juncture.

nobody else can decide for me.

i am deciding for myself.

so hell,

why do i complain?