madonna/ whore/ unfuckable part 2

sometimes i wonder

what is it 

that makes a woman desirable?

and then i wonder

why do i fail

to arouse a man?

madonna's virtue 

but a whore

who is unfuckable?

doesn't make sense,

does it?

from being bedded

to being unwanted 

the next day,

my quest for

answer continues

why do i fail to arouse a man?

and why do i have a visceral need

in me

to please a man

when i could live a life

unencumbered by love, sex, etc?

the whore in me

quakes at the thought

of giving up worldly pleasures

in exchange of this life. 

and the Madonna in me

wonders why i can't live a life of virtue?