DO IT FOR THE PLOT

 DO IT FOR THE PLOT!

this is going to be my mantra for my 30s.

i really don't have a single thing going on in life,

just coasting by,

aimless,

shallow,

out of depth,

disoriented of sorts.

but i want to be doing things.

exploring.

tasting.

loving.

breaking into a million pieces.

exhaling.

rooting in deep.

flying.

loving.

i don't know how long my life will be,

although i hope to live a long life.

but whatever it is,

i want to LIVE,

not just survive.

wanting and doing are two different things,

so i have just randomly decided,

unless it is illegal--

(in which case i won't oblige)

i will do it for the plot--

say yes to things and people and experiences

and let my guard down sometimes.

do it for the plot.

the mantra for my 30s.