i don't know why i didn't publish this sooner? but words of wisdom

 remember when meredith says in grey's anatomy:

'pick me, choose me, love me'.

i keep wanting to say this

to people

because honestly,

i'm never the first choice.

i can't cry about it.

but why am i not first choice for me?

therein lies a problem.

it is understandable that other people will put themselves 

before me

but why do i put others before myself?

my health, my career,

my money

or the severe lack of all three,

shouldn't that be high on my priority list?

pick me

choose me

love me

i've got to say these to myself first

before any knight in shining armor comes saving me.