first week of april

 soo

first week of april.

lots of doom scrolling.

papa's birthday

sabi gave the most thoughtful gift

she's so good at gift giving

(it's actually very sweet_).

exams

two awful awful exams

where i was so underprepared it was scary

because i have dreamed of getting this job for atleast

three years.

makes me wonder 

why am i taking life so lightly?

i need to get my shit together.

white lotus last episode

was awful

because the only storyline i cared for

ended in a cliffhanger.

and an unexpected development

that's all i will say for now.

i miss talking to kiran 

because he always made me feel so loved and cared for,

but he's so busy toiling away

that he doesn't have time to talk to me anymore.

i'm scared that he's overworked

and exhausted all the time

but he has no option but to keep going, so i worry.

i shot my shot.

one shot.

landed terribly.

but he's pretty sweet

so

it was ok.

he's one of the most thoughtful people i know,

gaah, should have thought

before blurting it out

tara

it is ok.

khi chaina maya,

yesto dherai bhairakcha.