dear god

dear god,

we need to talk.

i am not very good,

but i am not all bad either.

so imagine my confusion

in why i get stuck in awful vicious cycles

of terribleness especially when it comes to love.

i know i have sinned.

more than most.

i don't know what i can do about it.

what's done is done.

i sometimes feel like life is futile,

but i try to be as good as possible,

lend me a helping hand god.

you've been my constant companion,

my rock,

and have helped me in most situations,

and i am so grateful for you.