conversation with she

 here she goes again.

making one bad decision after another,

realizing but never imbibing

that her life is wasting away.

what would i tell her?

"take a pause.

breathe.

reflect.

look around.

i know you've been hopelessly searching for an anchor,

but you know that 

you'll have to find that anchor within you."

seeking external validation is her kryptonite,

a fallacy she never outgrew,

making her believe that her worth

is always tied to others.

understand kid,

you're only as worthy as you think you are yourself.

some people might say you're great,

others may call you a bitch,

but nobody knows your journey like you do.

you decide how much value you put

to other people's opinions.

she has always felt an emptiness

where love is supposed to be.

you might say she is invisible to the world,

mostly forgettable,

never memorable.

people hardly see her besides her rolls of fat

and unkempt hair.

what do you want?

is it physical intimacy 

(something you've always been scared of pursuing),

is it friendship?

is it an antidote to the loneliness you feel inside?

she isn't the best at keeping promises to herself.

she needs to know..

the whole world struggles with this,

just try your best 

and leave the rest to god.

we'll all die someday

and everything that exists

will cease to matter.

but that doesn't mean 

you curl up in your bed

and cry all day.

go out.

live life.

take chances.

don't be afraid.

the world is scary

but it is also lovely.

embrace life,

whatever happens,

you'll handle it.