Ame's Valentine's Day

 The irony's not lost on me.

For someone who has been perpetually single her entire life,

I LOVE LOVE.

I really do,

and Valentine's Day happens to be a holiday

I enjoy. 

Not that I've ever gotten a reason to get excited on this day.

Well.

Well nothing huhahahaha.

This year,

I told a friend that I'd watch Bridget Jones' Diary 

eating a tub of ice cream,

feeling sorry for myself.

I did watch Bridget Jones,

and thoroughly enjoyed it.

I did eat ice cream, but well, couldn't find a tub

so had to make do with a cone of butterscotch icecream

and some very weird textured Dairy Milk balls.

I didn't feel sorry though.

Not because I'm hopeful any more than I was last year,

but I've come to this realization that

me moping around isn't a fun experience for anybody.

I'd rather live life in my own terms,

even if those terms aren't the best decisions to be made about life.

I write this as I'm listening to Taylor Swift's Lover

and desperately hoping that someday I might get a reason to sing this song to someone.